The restless mind

                                      There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
                                      And shes buying a stairway to heaven.
                                      When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
                                      With a word she can get what she came for
                                      ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven...

                                                                                                   - Ledd Zeppelin.

She is a girl who had wings. She is a girl who has grown up dreaming about what lies beyond and what lies beneath. She is someone who wouldn’t know what she would be doing a moment later.
She wanted to be fast. She wanted to be strong. She wanted to hold a breath, close her eyes lay back and decide her next destination to peace. But she was just a girl...

All her life, writhing in monsterly cages, struggling for some daylight, for cracking the shell.  

Amidst all of that she practised her flying skills a little.
Behind the mountains where the river is always calling. Where the sun touches your skin like a kiss and the water so blue, that she would stare at it for hours and play with it.


And now the clock strikes five, chains rattle behind her, entangled her in a mesh and got her back to the cage.She is safe now....
From the miseries of the humankind and the miracles of nature.
But her heart beats there,
behind the mountains where the river is always calling. 
She loved the place so much, she left a piece of her heart there.

Now she is growing older, turning better. She could feel herself grow.
 She had finally managed to crack the shell and fly out into oblivion, and disappear...

But there was a being here who was waiting for her  a thousand years. She felt his presence. She felt him breathing. He was an angel of God. She loved him. He was crazy for her...
But she feared him. Feared that he would entangle her in a mesh and put her in a shell like everyone else does.

But there were a few things she was crazy about.

She loved his charm. She loved his caricatured body. She loved his wits and his conscience. She found him beautiful. She was happy around him...

She loved the excitement, the rush of hormones, the sparks in the eyes. 

They made love to Led Zepplin and Metallica, grooving to the sound of music and playing with the rhythms. He loved her like crazy. All he wanted was to make her happy and keep her healthy. It would kill him to see her ill and weak.

 And she wondered if all of it will last.

What if, these days, the days of excitements and uncertainty of what lies ahead are the best days of her life. 
What if, all of it vanishes the very day she gets entitled to him.
What if, people can take people for granted.  

She became a deep lover of uncertainty and excitement. She didn’t want to know what lies ahead but deal with it when the time comes. 
The excitement, the sparks of initial love, the blushing and the red lipstick, are what she wanted to feel.

 She was born to fly...

 She was destined to surge into the wind, race towards the sun and never look back. Towards places unknown and times untravelled...